When god asked me to start Simply Divine for weeks I knew my high empathy would get in the way. I would ask him “why he chose me”, but I never heard his answer. I am a very strong person to many things in life, but when it comes to someone having less, or affected in a negative emotion my high empathy puts me in sadness for them. Feeling their pain to the core, depending on the situation sometimes physically feeling their pain or sometimes even crying for them or with them. I knew the moment I would be face to face with someone less fortunate, I would break into tears. I convinced myself that I needed to figure this out by the time we had our first event. Remembering I am not perfect and we are born of sinful nature, but this was not going to be a reason not to be obedient to my Lord.
On the day of the event, I gave the first lunch sack to a homeless person, I managed not to cry in front of him. I did cry all the way back to the car where my friend and mom was. My mother knowing my high empathy just rubbed my back reminding me I needed to get strength, because this was only the beginning. My friend was probably utterly confused. She only knew the “Strong Veronica”. She also kept repeating that I needed strength. At that moment I decided, I needed to stop thinking: that l needed to fix the situation alone. I went into prayer and asked god, “to please help me, to give me strength, to get me thru today.”
I was able to get thru the whole event with no tears, no sadness, no pain…..just his light!
That night while I laid in bed ready to sleep thinking about everything we witnessed that day, I heard god tell me, “I chose you because of your high empathy, because if you did not have high empathy, you would not care this much to help to bring back humanity by helping the less fortunate.”
Veronica xoxoxo
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